The Importance of Birthday or lack thereof.


Next 2 weeks. 27 years old. 27 years of living. 27 years that my heart beating. 27 years of walking. 27 years of listening lies, deceit and hurtful. 27 years of being total ignorant. 27 years of not learning anything from education. 27 years of thinking what should I wear the next day. 27 years of seeing what horrible world can be. 27 years of seeing beautiful things. 27 years of eating good food. 27 years of laughter and sadness and unnecessary depress and all despite of being 27 years, it does feel like going to one door to another. I feel my life is slipping. I guess everyone is. Stop and smell the roses. Do we actually have time to stop?
Tell me, what is your purpose? Some people having their purpose known in sciences, technology, sports, humanity and wealth.
I think God put special "something" for certain people to create things and did put "everything special" in every day life which we all equally have. Why complain?

Birthday is important to some people. It is the day we are born. It is also an indication how long have you live or perhaps remembering birthday is like remembering your past, remembering who you are and where you come from. Perhaps for amnesia people, it is why they are frustrated and eagerly to know their birthdate cause without remember it, you have a body without a soul. I heard God "breath" life to baby in the womb after 2 weeks, so in my calculation, my "real" birthdate would be 19th January 1982. It is just a theory.

I can be proud of myself for being no complainer about birthday. I do not have 16th birthday party, I do not have 18th birthday party and truly I care less.
Some of my friends had big bash party for becoming 16 years old. It is fun to be in those party. I truly care less about my own still. My own real party consist of fried chicken and ton of buns on a beautiful mountain that the eyes can see stretch of splendid view with my sister, my close friend and my bf oh and colorful balloons, I often feel a lot of balloons is happy. I dont want any other people in my party. Not that I am anti-sosial, I prefer being on myself and certain people than being with tons of people that I truly doesn't give a shit.

Is it me who afraid to know how I aged? Is it me to afraid things aren't like it used to be? I am too vain to know my own age. "age is just a number" < true but it is a reminder as well like laptop battery charge, you know you have some little battery on, so you plug in the batter charger. Just like life, though we can't truly "charge and turn back time' but we can "charge" lives in new ways when things aren't working.

My warmth is not for anybody and everybody and I don't feel sorry for that.

Benefits of walking.

I went for a walk yesterday with Anna and Katja. It was one hour fun! Apparently, I think we went all around Tapiola.
I do love walking. Many reason of why walking is good. I got this list from http://www.aarp.org/health/fitness/walking/a2004-06-17-walking-numerousbenefits.html, check it out if you want more explaination.

• Managing your weight.
• Controlling your blood pressure. .
  Decreasing your risk of heart attack.
• Boosting "good" cholesterol
• Lowering your risk of stroke
• Reducing your risk of breast cancer and type 2 diabetes.
• Avoiding your need for gallstone surgery.
• Protecting against hip fracture.
• Prevent depression, colon cancer, constipation, osteoporosis, and impotence
  Lengthen lifespan
  Lower stress levels
  Relieve arthritis and back pain
  Strengthen muscles, bones, and joints
  Improve sleep
  Elevate overall mood and sense of well-being.

Personally, I prefer walking than running. I tend to short of breath too easily and it doesn't make me comfortable when I feel I need to think how to breath properly.

It is not so bad to walk alone though I won't mind having a company to walk along. We don't need to talk much. I begin to understand about silence is gold in certain time. I used to feel uncomfortable not to talk whenever I'm with someone.

I walked much back home and the reason is I don't have a car nor a bike. I have a bike now! I used to keep bugging my dad to buy me a bike since I was 13. After 14 years, I got one! I got a bike from my boyfriend who I didn't expect to buy it! I love it.

I still remember my "walking days" in KL. Going through LRT, stuffed KTM and walk 15 minutes from KLCC to Pavilion. Matter of fact, I feel thats all I've been doing. Walking to work, standing up in the train, walking to shopping mall and sit to eat. I feel kinda bored. Though walking is the best!

So Keep Walking!

Raya day today! The sound of Azan for Raya is ringing in my head and songs of raya is in my heart. It sound bad that I didn't go home for Raya but I will next year. It is not so bad not to celebrate it as usual. I don't feel bad though. hehe.. it means that I don't have to wash the dishes after everybody going home.

Really, I don't feel bad at all that I don't celebrate it. I had a very good lunch with my bf at New Bamboo Center @ Helsinki earlier. I am so full, I feel sleepy now. :) Thats what happen when you stuff yourself with rice, chicken and beef side dishes , deep fry crab, huge spring rolls and huge deep fry banana with vanilla ice-cream!Delicious!! I love deep fry food. It is not healthy but it taste good. This deep fry food supposedly eaten just occasionally cause I feel when I eat it too often, it doesn't taste good anymore and the only taste you will be having is OIL.

Raya is about eating much food anyway! Rendang, Kuah Kacang, Roti Jala, Kari Ayam, Kuzi Ayam, Nasi Impit and tons of cookies and cakes! Its once a year food fiesta!

Not to mention Raya program in tv. There always be singers sing Raya songs and comedy show about Raya, usually about people who doesn't celebrate Raya and come home to celebrate it with joyful in their heart. More less like Christmas day. It is like traditions for every religious festival. :)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all muslim in Malaysia and all over the world, May Allah bless you and Enjoy eating!!!:)

Autumn 2009

Autumn. My first autumn. Everything turns into yellow, brownish and reddish. Trees and grasses, I mean. J

It is just a beautiful day outside. I am sitting at the kitchen waiting for my peanuts to cook with ghee.:) everything is ghee now.:)

Autumn again. The best thing is there is always a tradition comes along with the season. Like tradition of midsummer in Finland which go around the bushes naked and all other naked stuff :) I will definitely participate in that next midsummer.

For autumn, I dont know if there's any tradition but I think there is some tradition in England or other parts of world. Let me google. :) oh silly me, its Halloween or mischief night and harvest festival (that would be in England).Anyhow, there's an interesting traditions in Chinese culture where it is one of the most romantic night for lovers, holding hands on hilltop and just moon gazing:). Family reunion, much like western thanksgiving and they make lanterns and such!

Wonder why there's 4 season? I found there is God of winter (Skadi- Norse god and the crone- Celtic god or goddess) and God of spring (Eostre - Celtic God) but no God of Summer or autumn. Even God prefer to have vacations on that season! :)

Interesting enough, the sun is very much bright and it gives me a very happy feeling. A lot of people telling me about how dark it would be when winter arrive. I'm looking forward to that as well as I am looking forward to be depress.:) It will be my first full winter experience. geezzz....

It will be Raya in 6 days. Time does flies. :)